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FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Shepard, I'll be frank. I led at the end of Ajna. Afterwards, when we were assessed on this very issue, I scored higher than anyone. You have seen me lead, and you have seen me lead well.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
I don't believe this is about what you haven't seen. I think it's about you disagreeing with my orders when people died on the Neheda. That has nothing to do with my leadership on the field.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
If this was solely about my field leadership, you wouldn't have moved me. You're letting personal feelings cloud your judgement.
[ Which is exactly what she did before, so he's not very surprised. ]
Shepard, I'll be frank. I led at the end of Ajna. Afterwards, when we were assessed on this very issue, I scored higher than anyone. You have seen me lead, and you have seen me lead well.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
I don't believe this is about what you haven't seen. I think it's about you disagreeing with my orders when people died on the Neheda. That has nothing to do with my leadership on the field.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
If this was solely about my field leadership, you wouldn't have moved me. You're letting personal feelings cloud your judgement.
[ Which is exactly what she did before, so he's not very surprised. ]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Both Rogers and Sun have more than enough experience to teach fundamental field strategy. This is basic, not about scoring highest on an assessment not everyone was even required to take
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
With the increase in leads I cut down on the number of classes everyone is teaching. I put you where I thought the need was greater. If I was half as biased as you think I am I would have taken you off entirely
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Trust me when I say that if I thought you were incompetent I wouldn't let you near this program
Both Rogers and Sun have more than enough experience to teach fundamental field strategy. This is basic, not about scoring highest on an assessment not everyone was even required to take
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
With the increase in leads I cut down on the number of classes everyone is teaching. I put you where I thought the need was greater. If I was half as biased as you think I am I would have taken you off entirely
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Trust me when I say that if I thought you were incompetent I wouldn't let you near this program
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Then prove it, and put me back on the class I'm best able to teach.
[ He doesn't believe her. He thinks she's making a call because she doesn't like that he wouldn't bend to her will over his orders. ]
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Whatever you think of me, Shepard, my priority is the safety and wellbeing of this crew. If the number of classes is the issue, switch me out of a different one. Aeryn takes basic training every day.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
You can't tell me this issue is one of logistics.
Then prove it, and put me back on the class I'm best able to teach.
[ He doesn't believe her. He thinks she's making a call because she doesn't like that he wouldn't bend to her will over his orders. ]
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Whatever you think of me, Shepard, my priority is the safety and wellbeing of this crew. If the number of classes is the issue, switch me out of a different one. Aeryn takes basic training every day.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
You can't tell me this issue is one of logistics.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
You need to get your ass out of that bed. Not like there's anything you can do right now. Or even anything I can tell you. But damn, Shepard, you pick the worst times to nap.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
The longer you sleep, the more I'm going to draw on you. As a fair warning.
You need to get your ass out of that bed. Not like there's anything you can do right now. Or even anything I can tell you. But damn, Shepard, you pick the worst times to nap.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
The longer you sleep, the more I'm going to draw on you. As a fair warning.
FROM: khezek.jasper@cdc.org
No I dont sing that often.
No I dont sing that often.
[She believes that - that it's his priority. What she doesn't have any faith in is Sturmhond's definition of who 'this crew' consists of, how far that loyalty extends to an individual or who's holding the leash he's tied to.
--They're the same people who're holding all of their lines, but the fact that he gives every appearance of being satisfied with the collar doesn't win him any points in her book.]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
This isn't about where you feel you deserve to be. It's about where you're needed. If the safety and well being of this crew is really your top priority, you'll understand that
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I'll take your request under advisement
--They're the same people who're holding all of their lines, but the fact that he gives every appearance of being satisfied with the collar doesn't win him any points in her book.]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
This isn't about where you feel you deserve to be. It's about where you're needed. If the safety and well being of this crew is really your top priority, you'll understand that
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I'll take your request under advisement
FROM: khezek.jasper@cdc.org
Alright but I only know Elvish songs.
Alright but I only know Elvish songs.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Garrus Vakarian spoke to me after our discussion, on the Neheda. He seemed worried I might hold a grudge against you.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
I told him I wasn't the one he needed to worry about.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
You're right. This isn't about where I think I deserve to be. It's where you thought I should be, before we argued over the orders you didn't like.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
For what it's worth, I never had any desire to be at odds with you. Aside from anything to do with the classes or the program, I still don't want that.
Garrus Vakarian spoke to me after our discussion, on the Neheda. He seemed worried I might hold a grudge against you.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
I told him I wasn't the one he needed to worry about.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
You're right. This isn't about where I think I deserve to be. It's where you thought I should be, before we argued over the orders you didn't like.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
For what it's worth, I never had any desire to be at odds with you. Aside from anything to do with the classes or the program, I still don't want that.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Are you still sleeping? I mean, damn. No wonder why everyone else is being promoted off grey and you aren't. Then again. I stayed awake and got reassigned, so hell, who knows?
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Missed a hell of a lot, by the way. Fights, and a few old faces. Joker. Mordin. Williams. Guess maybe I should have known they'd be gone.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Just used to seeing a group elsewhere before they got here and stuck around.
Are you still sleeping? I mean, damn. No wonder why everyone else is being promoted off grey and you aren't. Then again. I stayed awake and got reassigned, so hell, who knows?
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Missed a hell of a lot, by the way. Fights, and a few old faces. Joker. Mordin. Williams. Guess maybe I should have known they'd be gone.
FROM: vakarian.garrus@cdc.org
Just used to seeing a group elsewhere before they got here and stuck around.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
The next time you want someone to do you a favor, try not to act like you're entitled to it first
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I don't really care what you think of me or how you don't like that I won't bend over backwards to make you happy when you clearly don't respect me
[If Shepard recognizes the hypocrisy in those statements, she's not making note of it to him.]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
What I DO care is this program and the people in it. They need to know how to function successfully when running blind because that's all we seem to do here.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cedc.org
Bottom line: this isn't about you or me. If you really want to help these recruits, you'll do what's necessary and not just what you want. If you don't like my answer, you're free to do your own thing. God knows everyone here could use more training
The next time you want someone to do you a favor, try not to act like you're entitled to it first
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I don't really care what you think of me or how you don't like that I won't bend over backwards to make you happy when you clearly don't respect me
[If Shepard recognizes the hypocrisy in those statements, she's not making note of it to him.]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
What I DO care is this program and the people in it. They need to know how to function successfully when running blind because that's all we seem to do here.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cedc.org
Bottom line: this isn't about you or me. If you really want to help these recruits, you'll do what's necessary and not just what you want. If you don't like my answer, you're free to do your own thing. God knows everyone here could use more training
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
If you had any respect for me or how Sun and I choose to run this program there wouldn't be any reason to jump to this being a personal issue
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
This has nothing to do with gag orders or instructions from the brass. If you disagree with something, fine. If you think I'm doing it out of spite, that suggests a lack of care for these students I don't have time for
If you had any respect for me or how Sun and I choose to run this program there wouldn't be any reason to jump to this being a personal issue
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
This has nothing to do with gag orders or instructions from the brass. If you disagree with something, fine. If you think I'm doing it out of spite, that suggests a lack of care for these students I don't have time for
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
If I didn't have respect for you, I wouldn't have come to talk about it. If the air didn't need clearing, then why didn't you talk to me before taking me off a class I'd been preparing for?
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Respect goes both ways.
If I didn't have respect for you, I wouldn't have come to talk about it. If the air didn't need clearing, then why didn't you talk to me before taking me off a class I'd been preparing for?
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Respect goes both ways.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
No one else had any say in their reassignments either. You're the only one who's come to tell me I had something against them because of it
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I also said I'd consider your request. Just because I'm not handing it to you on a silver platter doesn't mean it couldn't happen
No one else had any say in their reassignments either. You're the only one who's come to tell me I had something against them because of it
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I also said I'd consider your request. Just because I'm not handing it to you on a silver platter doesn't mean it couldn't happen
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Haven't you?
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Since that day, you've spoken to me only when you had to. Don't tell me I'm imagining it, Shepard. If that's not what influenced your decision, fine. I'll accept your word on that.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
It doesn't mean there wasn't something wrong between us, which I would like to put right.
Haven't you?
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Since that day, you've spoken to me only when you had to. Don't tell me I'm imagining it, Shepard. If that's not what influenced your decision, fine. I'll accept your word on that.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
It doesn't mean there wasn't something wrong between us, which I would like to put right.
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