The next time you want someone to do you a favor, try not to act like you're entitled to it first
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I don't really care what you think of me or how you don't like that I won't bend over backwards to make you happy when you clearly don't respect me
[If Shepard recognizes the hypocrisy in those statements, she's not making note of it to him.]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
What I DO care is this program and the people in it. They need to know how to function successfully when running blind because that's all we seem to do here.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cedc.org
Bottom line: this isn't about you or me. If you really want to help these recruits, you'll do what's necessary and not just what you want. If you don't like my answer, you're free to do your own thing. God knows everyone here could use more training
[ He's going to ignore the majority of that, since he finally got what seems like a shred of honesty from her. That's what he'd been looking for in the first place. ]
If you had any respect for me or how Sun and I choose to run this program there wouldn't be any reason to jump to this being a personal issue
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
This has nothing to do with gag orders or instructions from the brass. If you disagree with something, fine. If you think I'm doing it out of spite, that suggests a lack of care for these students I don't have time for
If I didn't have respect for you, I wouldn't have come to talk about it. If the air didn't need clearing, then why didn't you talk to me before taking me off a class I'd been preparing for?
Since that day, you've spoken to me only when you had to. Don't tell me I'm imagining it, Shepard. If that's not what influenced your decision, fine. I'll accept your word on that.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
It doesn't mean there wasn't something wrong between us, which I would like to put right.
I didn't have anything to say to you and as far as I'm aware you haven't had anything to say to me up until now. I didn't see the point in wasting either of our time
[And maybe if they're both extremely lucky, Shepard's muleheadedness will do something to convince herself of it as much as she's trying to get Sturmhond to buy it.]
[ He doesn’t buy it, not really. He’s not particularly trusting, as a rule, but he doesn’t believe that he was imagining things. He does think that pressing her further won’t make a difference, though. If she doesn’t want to bend, he can’t make her. He’ll just hope that taking the first step will end up counting for something. For now, he’ll stop bothering her.]
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Then I’ll let you get back to whatever I interrupted. Thank you for your time.
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By all means.
so sorry for the delay
The next time you want someone to do you a favor, try not to act like you're entitled to it first
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I don't really care what you think of me or how you don't like that I won't bend over backwards to make you happy when you clearly don't respect me
[If Shepard recognizes the hypocrisy in those statements, she's not making note of it to him.]
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
What I DO care is this program and the people in it. They need to know how to function successfully when running blind because that's all we seem to do here.
FROM: shepard.lydia@cedc.org
Bottom line: this isn't about you or me. If you really want to help these recruits, you'll do what's necessary and not just what you want. If you don't like my answer, you're free to do your own thing. God knows everyone here could use more training
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FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Why do you think I don't respect you?
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If you had any respect for me or how Sun and I choose to run this program there wouldn't be any reason to jump to this being a personal issue
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
This has nothing to do with gag orders or instructions from the brass. If you disagree with something, fine. If you think I'm doing it out of spite, that suggests a lack of care for these students I don't have time for
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If I didn't have respect for you, I wouldn't have come to talk about it. If the air didn't need clearing, then why didn't you talk to me before taking me off a class I'd been preparing for?
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Respect goes both ways.
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No one else had any say in their reassignments either. You're the only one who's come to tell me I had something against them because of it
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I also said I'd consider your request. Just because I'm not handing it to you on a silver platter doesn't mean it couldn't happen
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And I accepted that. I still wanted to clear the air.
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By effectively saying that I've been holding a grudge against you
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I'm not sure where you learned how clearing the air works, but it's not something that culturally translates
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Haven't you?
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Since that day, you've spoken to me only when you had to. Don't tell me I'm imagining it, Shepard. If that's not what influenced your decision, fine. I'll accept your word on that.
FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
It doesn't mean there wasn't something wrong between us, which I would like to put right.
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I didn't have anything to say to you and as far as I'm aware you haven't had anything to say to me up until now. I didn't see the point in wasting either of our time
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
There's nothing to put right
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If you're certain.
[ He's not certain. But if there does remain a problem, no one can say he didn't try to fix it. The ball is in her court now. ]
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I'm positive
[And maybe if they're both extremely lucky, Shepard's muleheadedness will do something to convince herself of it as much as she's trying to get Sturmhond to buy it.]
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FROM: sturmhond@cdc.org
Then I’ll let you get back to whatever I interrupted. Thank you for your time.