[She makes a low noise, vague like a dismissive passing thought - flicks her eyes away and back.]
Look-- [Like a verbal punctuation mark or a knife punching through paper.] --If you want to quit, that's your decision. But we've got people who haven't been in the program as long as you and I wouldn't be surprised if we got more from the last drop after they see some action. You're fast and at this point you know what you're doing more than Tsuna or Iwaizumi. It's good to have a couple of people who get the general idea.
[Crisp and sharp; this isn't a consolation prize, it's just a fact - the same thing she'd told Garrus, the same thing she'd told Sturmhond. Separating the kids up or teaching one on one wasn't going to make them capable; teach a kid to shoot a gun and they might be a decent shot, but that didn't mean they knew how to pass that on. Better to shove them all on a group and hope for some kind of osmosis - things like Jasper chasing Hinata's mile time.]
[even with energy lacking, he supposed he had those things to give. thinking of Tsuna or Iwaizumi - extending it as far as Ciel -- he... saw what she meant. Tsuna had powers to fall back on, but he apparently needed pills every other step, which was time he couldn't always afford. Iwaizumi was--- worse but better, all calm and focus, but he had to be terrified, what person with emotions wouldn't be?]
[... Shepard spoke as if it were simple business, which made it all the easier to sink into. intentional, maybe - a bit of him realized that - but what it accumulated into could easily be called deep gratitude. focus shifted, weight moved, anxiety inch by inch lowered. not fully. enough for, after a pause of staring,]
Alright.
[I said I wouldn't--]
[--- in a fit of panic, which Shepard (given her being here) probably knew. he'd wait. it'd mean more.]
... Sorry for inconveniencing you. [but.] But thank you for coming out here, too, Miss Shepard.
[It's not an answer, not really, but it feels like something's been defused anyway - or at least that it isn't going to explode in her hands. She'll take it. Doesn't really have an alternative. Not on this front, anyway. So her response then is automatic, instinctual like a breath of air being let go:]
You're part of my crew.
[Less - or maybe exactly as much - possessive as it sounds. None of these people are hers, not in martial sense, but she's not talking about the Neheda's crew (more than half cannon fodder) or the constant cycle of teams. Her people, guarded with a wolfish single mindedness.
She shifts the gun at her hip then, the strap of it a weight that digs at her shoulder, and rocks back on her heels - a minute turn, clearly signaling she's about ready to cut loose from this.]
Anyway better this than just doing things because someone expects you to.
[he isn't sure how to respond to that-- relief wells under the continued embarrassment of making her come out here (except she'd chosen to, hadn't she? didn't know), and he tramps down both in an effort not to appear too one way or another. it puts an awkward, uncertainly happy look on his face, which he is by no means conscious of.]
[part of her crew. a... nice feeling. more than a bit intimidating. something he wanted to return to the best of his ability---]
[- she shifted away; he snapped to attention out of habit, arms ramrod straight at his sides.]
Yeah! [ech, too loud, too obviously nervous. toning down with a wince:] Er, yeah. I mean...
[wait no he didn't mean anything this was not the time for a counterpoint too late.]
... It's not always bad, having expectations. [missions gave focus. missions gave goals. better than the baseline keep surviving, which seemed about all there ever was to strive toward. that must've been why he was so tired all the time: there was no real reward in just surviving. -- anyway.] Take care, Miss Shepard. I'll see you again soon.
[it didn't have a direct acceptance, but whatever, there wasn't any energy to be nervous about yet another thing.]
[Limitations to everything, she thinks - a sentiment that in the end has very little to do with Hinata but sinks low in her gut like a stone anyway. Turned by a degree even as she is, she fixes him with a brief, assessing look. And then nods, crisp enough and sharp enough to count as a dismissal.]
If you have any problems, let me know.
[And that's that: she moves off with her shoulders leading back up the way she'd come down.]
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Look-- [Like a verbal punctuation mark or a knife punching through paper.] --If you want to quit, that's your decision. But we've got people who haven't been in the program as long as you and I wouldn't be surprised if we got more from the last drop after they see some action. You're fast and at this point you know what you're doing more than Tsuna or Iwaizumi. It's good to have a couple of people who get the general idea.
[Crisp and sharp; this isn't a consolation prize, it's just a fact - the same thing she'd told Garrus, the same thing she'd told Sturmhond. Separating the kids up or teaching one on one wasn't going to make them capable; teach a kid to shoot a gun and they might be a decent shot, but that didn't mean they knew how to pass that on. Better to shove them all on a group and hope for some kind of osmosis - things like Jasper chasing Hinata's mile time.]
You don't have to decide right now.
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[even with energy lacking, he supposed he had those things to give. thinking of Tsuna or Iwaizumi - extending it as far as Ciel -- he... saw what she meant. Tsuna had powers to fall back on, but he apparently needed pills every other step, which was time he couldn't always afford. Iwaizumi was--- worse but better, all calm and focus, but he had to be terrified, what person with emotions wouldn't be?]
[... Shepard spoke as if it were simple business, which made it all the easier to sink into. intentional, maybe - a bit of him realized that - but what it accumulated into could easily be called deep gratitude. focus shifted, weight moved, anxiety inch by inch lowered. not fully. enough for, after a pause of staring,]
Alright.
[I said I wouldn't--]
[--- in a fit of panic, which Shepard (given her being here) probably knew. he'd wait. it'd mean more.]
... Sorry for inconveniencing you. [but.] But thank you for coming out here, too, Miss Shepard.
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You're part of my crew.
[Less - or maybe exactly as much - possessive as it sounds. None of these people are hers, not in martial sense, but she's not talking about the Neheda's crew (more than half cannon fodder) or the constant cycle of teams. Her people, guarded with a wolfish single mindedness.
She shifts the gun at her hip then, the strap of it a weight that digs at her shoulder, and rocks back on her heels - a minute turn, clearly signaling she's about ready to cut loose from this.]
Anyway better this than just doing things because someone expects you to.
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[he isn't sure how to respond to that-- relief wells under the continued embarrassment of making her come out here (except she'd chosen to, hadn't she? didn't know), and he tramps down both in an effort not to appear too one way or another. it puts an awkward, uncertainly happy look on his face, which he is by no means conscious of.]
[part of her crew. a... nice feeling. more than a bit intimidating. something he wanted to return to the best of his ability---]
[- she shifted away; he snapped to attention out of habit, arms ramrod straight at his sides.]
Yeah! [ech, too loud, too obviously nervous. toning down with a wince:] Er, yeah. I mean...
[wait no he didn't mean anything this was not the time for a counterpoint too late.]
... It's not always bad, having expectations. [missions gave focus. missions gave goals. better than the baseline keep surviving, which seemed about all there ever was to strive toward. that must've been why he was so tired all the time: there was no real reward in just surviving. -- anyway.] Take care, Miss Shepard. I'll see you again soon.
[it didn't have a direct acceptance, but whatever, there wasn't any energy to be nervous about yet another thing.]
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If you have any problems, let me know.
[And that's that: she moves off with her shoulders leading back up the way she'd come down.]
---> network.
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
If it's acceptable, I'd like to continue in the program, please.
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Good. See you at PT
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Yes maam