[There's a long list of things she needs to do before the program winds up again given how long she's been out and Aeryn's absence. Lalonde was gone too. Brown-- something in her walls off at the thought of Nicolas Brown. The point is she's down people and now, whatever she might have played at before, it really is her being short. Which means rearranging class rosters again, scrambling to assign material and make sure everyone's prepared to fly by the seat of their pants for the hundredth time in a row. There'd be messages to send, calls to make. Christ, she'd need to find someone to run off PT sessions and--
It'd be easy to get lost in the details (there's something appealing about the thought, the minutiae wrought opportunity unfolding out in front of her invitingly); but Shepard forces her attention to narrow, to stay in the arm's length worth of distance between them instead. Harder, but more fair, she thinks. Does that look on Jasper's face - the pinch around his red, bright eyes - some justice, right? Besides, at least the Crichton issue was something definitive to tackle: a subsidiary of losing Sun, but the most annoying and therefore the easiest to think about. Hard to be tender when she's too busy being irritated at John's self-imposed martyrdom.]
I've seen him. [Which on its own doesn't sound optimistic, she knows. But she'd not going to lie to Jasper's face and give him something mollifying like 'he'll be fine'. Right now Crichton seemed dead set on making a dumb decision somewhere down the road; the fact that he didn't know what it was going to be yet just made her feel gun shy and more jumpy. Unpredictable shit.] I'll take care of it.
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It'd be easy to get lost in the details (there's something appealing about the thought, the minutiae wrought opportunity unfolding out in front of her invitingly); but Shepard forces her attention to narrow, to stay in the arm's length worth of distance between them instead. Harder, but more fair, she thinks. Does that look on Jasper's face - the pinch around his red, bright eyes - some justice, right? Besides, at least the Crichton issue was something definitive to tackle: a subsidiary of losing Sun, but the most annoying and therefore the easiest to think about. Hard to be tender when she's too busy being irritated at John's self-imposed martyrdom.]
I've seen him. [Which on its own doesn't sound optimistic, she knows. But she'd not going to lie to Jasper's face and give him something mollifying like 'he'll be fine'. Right now Crichton seemed dead set on making a dumb decision somewhere down the road; the fact that he didn't know what it was going to be yet just made her feel gun shy and more jumpy. Unpredictable shit.] I'll take care of it.