[ Parker is good with balance, no need for modesty about it, but she isn't capable of defying the laws of physics and gravity, so when her feet are locked in, she has no other way but down. She yells out between clenched teeth and tries to pull with all of her strength out of her grasp, or the very least pull back her knees so she can lash out forward again and try to get her off of her.
This isn't what she wants at all. She doesn't want this - not just this. Not just fighting and not thinking, and losing. She wants to piss off Shepard. Get her angry enough to make her hit her for real. Not just block and parry and hold her. In the back of her mind, something tells her she needs to know there's a difference between the hits from the Black Box and those from real life. Some sort of string of reality she can hold on to the next time.
Maybe it's just wishful thinking. Destructive wishful thinking, but hopeful nonetheless. ]
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This isn't what she wants at all. She doesn't want this - not just this. Not just fighting and not thinking, and losing. She wants to piss off Shepard. Get her angry enough to make her hit her for real. Not just block and parry and hold her. In the back of her mind, something tells her she needs to know there's a difference between the hits from the Black Box and those from real life. Some sort of string of reality she can hold on to the next time.
Maybe it's just wishful thinking. Destructive wishful thinking, but hopeful nonetheless. ]